Welcome to the (13 year) Gap

I will be 30 this month. I am 6 years younger than my older brother, David. I am 4.5 years younger than my sister, Heather. 4.5 years older than my younger brother and 13 years older than my youngest sister.

I will preface this blog post with fact that I could have a very angry teenage sister on my hands. But, this is my blog and I don't believe anything I am saying is nasty or rude - I am just speaking from feelings.

There was a time, when I lived in Florida, where I got along with my youngest sister so well. Perhaps it was before she was corrupted by the world or had grown into her own. The point I am getting to is that we are in the same generation: millennial and I can't relate. I think and talk about this a lot and not just to her, but in general. This generational gap or difference must take effect, just a few years younger than me.

I shouldn't judge, but it is so hard. I don't understand the mentality of laziness. I had a job at 14, after school, binding notebooks and then another answering phones at a car place and filing papers. I wasn't allowed to get a cell phone until I could pay for it on my own - 16. I think my sister had her first cell phone and computer years before that. I am not jealous. I am where I am because of how I was brought up and I am totally OK with that.

I will tell you what makes me sad and drives me crazy all the same and maybe this gets better with age - how we used to be so close and now we just ... aren't. I will tell you I stopped being "friends" with her for a while as I couldn't stand the obnoxious shares and posts and the immaturity level that came with it. It blows my mind that someone could post pictures of a confederate flag and quotes saying "country girl" when there were very related happenings going on in the world. I am confident she doesn't know the true meaning of a confederate flag and that blew it up for me. I can't stand that kind of ignorance sometimes and from my sister, nope. She said she "hated everyone" on Thanksgiving. I was so sad. Why such a broad, mean statement on a day meant to give thanks? I made a comment (not a mean one at all) and she took immediate offense, then deleted everything. And again, I ask myself. Did I act that way at her age? Since when did this generation start acting like this?

I should be a little more sensitive, I know. I am open to realizing that. But, everyone is entitled to their opinion and this is my blog, so I will choose to talk about it. I have attempted to relate or talk and it just doesn't work, for now. Maybe in a few years we will get along again. Until then ...